Throw away everything you think you know, and let your mind expand from nothing.
Something sad but true I’m learning in this new place is that the people you think will be by your side forever, often aren’t. More often than I’d like to believe, lives take different twists and turns, and people go on different journeys, different adventures, different destinies. And perhaps one day, your paths will intertwine again, but it’s not something you should focus on. The future isn’t something you should make your day, today, be about. You’ve gotta live today for today - be thankful for what you have, and not yearn for more, never yearn for more, cause you never know when a life will be taken away.
And just because you’re in a different place and a different time than you once were, doesn’t mean you love the people from your past any less, or look back on the memories any differently; it merely means you cherish the people who are here, now, that little bit more.

One of my observations whilst traveling is this:
We have our “developed” countries, who whine and complain and consume, and have enough money to feed every hungry child in this world, but would rather thrive on their own thirst for objects and materialism and ultimately make something into nothing.
Then we have our “developing” world who love and learn, and smile at strangers, and treat each other with respect and appreciate every last blessing they’ve been given, and make nothing into something.

I’m not really sure how well I’m answering your question here, but the words are flowing from somewhere they’ve been hiding for weeks now, so please, bear with me. Below is real life magic, created out of natural resources that these beautiful and humble Filipinos created for two of my friends on their wedding day.
When is the day that we give in to this materialistic world, and stop embracing in a beauty that’s pure and resourceful and built out of love?

I understand where you’re coming from. Wholly, and completely. When I initially read this, I felt you had extracted a thought process from my own mind and formed it the writing above.
I miss my old life like crazy. I miss my friends, I miss structure, and what I thought was familiarity, and let’s face it, old habits really do die hard. But you’ve gotta come to grips with the truth; the reason why you left, the possibility and potential that awaits you every morning. Take this new life and embrace it, treat everything as a blessing, even the bad, especially the bad - how else would we grow stronger and learn a lesson, and feel, really feel to the depths of our souls, that we’re alive?