March 2010
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The reason behind 100 days.
For a while I was cleaner than now, Then I started to destroy myself, With the things that I love and the things that I hate, until they finally broke me. Some people say that pictures paint a thousand words, but some passages do too. This passages understands me and comforts me in a place that nothing else can. Its so human. We come into the world perfect little bundles of joy, beautiful and...
“Whatever you are, be a good one.”
You told me to write a letter to you, and I asked you why. You shrugged and looked away and the subject was dropped. I cannot write a letter to you because there was too much to say and there were too little words. What would you have me write? That I look for excuses to talk to you longer on the phone, or if we were in the car? That I get annoyed if you ask me to rest instead of seeing you...
ASK ME ANYTHING, ANONYMOUSLY. →
Word vomit. Last night.
“Can I just say something? I’m sorry. I know I’m being a cunt, that I can’t call you anymore. Everytime your name is mentioned it causes the biggest fight in my relationship, it goes on for days. I know I’m choosing hoes over bros, but I’m in love… And I’m sorry.” Lie better next time.
I’m back at square on. My mouth is dry and my eyes...
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I don’t need words to express how I feel right now.
Think of me when you’re out, when...
Word vomit.
Mind takes control as my fingers move without thought. The next morning I never have any recollection of what these words mean, but it doesn’t matter. It doesn’t have to make sense, nothing ever does. As long as I capture a feeling before the moment passes. The future doesn’t always have to understand the past. This is a collection of my word vomit from the past month.
I write...
Do you know why the wedding ring is placed on the...
A lady came into work today. She has the most beautiful ring on her finger. It happened last night. My heart pounds in my chest, and my mind starts racing, but I am not smiling. I shake my head to clear it, and start cleaning something that doesn’t need to be cleaned, but still, my thoughts go back to you and how last night was the last time. I’m never getting married. You want an...
They say it's always a little different once you...
You: Jess, so often do I sit infront of my phone with a blank message addressed to you. I can never think of something to say. I never really understood it till now. Even when we are together we don't speak. Sending you a blank message would probably be the most appropriate thing to do. Miss you lots.
Turning around.
shadesofblack:
Going back is never as good.
You remembered the exact spot I go. You wanna know what’s liberating? Running down this alone at night. You know what I’d find more liberating? Thought so.
Even if you have 999,999,999 problems, a bitch...
The fact that I thought about texting you, then decided I didn’t really want to, nor did I think it would be a good idea.. speaks volumes to me. Maybe you will never know what I was going to say and truth be told I couldn’t be bothered waiting for your reply.
It's long; but read it.
I wrote this April last year.
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You talk about your life like I should be inspired or something. Believe me, the only inspiration you give was for this writing. There comes a point in all our lives when everything starts to fall apart. The puzzle of life starts to fall apart before us, and before...
Coming from someone whos been single her whole...
If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. Slower is better. If a relationship ends because they were not treating you as you deserve then fuck no, you can’t “be friends”. A friend wouldn’t mistreat a friend. Don’t settle for second best. The only person you can control in a relationship is you. Always have your own set of friends separate from his. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you....
By definition, a crush must hurt.
I know you didn’t mean it Sit back, relax. Sit back, relapse again Upside down and inside out No, I don’t believe you. I watched you dress, kiss and tell Don’t make this easy, I want you to mean it. Memories that fade like photographs Silence reveals where we really are This empty space Do you miss the way the world was spinning for us? The silence will set you free.
“EVERYONE DEALS WITH THEIR OWN PROBLEMS IN THEIR OWN WAY. DON’T MESS WITH THAT.”
Remember...
1. Whoever comes are the right people.
2. Whatever happens is the only thing that could have.
3. Whenever it starts is the right time.
4. When it’s over, it’s over.
I can feel something happening that I’ve...
I've got a complicated case of escapism
Watching the intoxication take over, and complex thoughts becoming simple. You know last night was a once off, right? My year 12 maths teacher told me this. “Your friendship group will change every three years. So don’t give up opportunities for people who won’t be there when push comes to shove. There will be few exceptions over the years, hold onto those people tight.” I...
