December 2009
89 posts
but still, it remains the best decision I ever...
When you get that close to someone, they become a part of you. You grow together.
I didn’t lose you when I walked away. I lost a part of myself.
Sometimes we don’t do things we want to do so that...
I don’t live like this. Not anymore.
“Damaged people are dangerous. They know they can survive.”
The hardest you could be
And you will find no fear here, in unkind words or the hardness of others. And you will find no sadness here, in the meanness of the world, in the anger that comes from those who feel small. And you will find no hurt here, in a million insults or a single, softly spoken lie. Because only a hard heart shatters. Only a hard heart, breaks.
13610.) I narrate my life when I'm alone.
(via blogsecret)
The last time. Never looking back.
Me: We can’t be together.
Him: Apparently
Me: You know how much I liked you, and still do.
Him: Probably not as much as I liked you.
Me: But every time something starts it ends badly and I get hell hurt.
Him: I’m an idiot. I like you more than that and I hate myself for doing that to you, but I want something serious with you. Not just a girlfriend that I’m going to have for a couple of months and then it all go to shit. I’m lucky you even talk to me.
Me: Which is what I want to. I’ve never had a real boyfriend and I’ve turned people down because I wanted to wait for you, but I’m too scared that your saying that to other people and that you don’t really mean it.
Him: I’m the biggest dickhead. I’m so sorry. You deserve better.
Me: I don’t want anyone else and I never have.
Him: I could be with you now and be happy for the rest of my life. I just want to make sure its right and I want you to realise to.
Me: Realise what? How do I know you actually mean it all?
Him: I don’t know how to prove it to you because I’ve been such an asshole.
Me: Can you promise?
Him: I promise
Me: Then I believe you
Him: Jess
Me: *******
Him: I love you.
Me: I love you.
Bad is never good until worse happens.
Emotions are merely energy and motion that you trap inside your body because of a thought.
A lot of problems within society come from the fact that we have such strong drives but live in a culture that discourages us from exploring them freely.
You can’t always control the thoughts in your head. You can’t take back the past. And you can’t control who you love. It’s a...
“If you don’t like something change it; if you can’t change it,...”
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“The robbed that smiles, steals something from the thief.”
– Shakespeare
wasn’t faded, not jaded, just a kid with a...
Deja vu never felt so good.
I’ll sit here again another day. Maybe the day I belong to someone for the first time. Maybe the night before something drastic, my wedding, my funeral, no promise, no company, just me, and the sounds of the waves hitting the shore. The water crashes down, then moves away so gracefully, just as people enter your life, then slowly drift away. I’ll sit here, in the same place, everytime,...
“Note to self: When you’ve finally found someone good, don’t go...”
Sometimes the past is something you just can’t let go of. And sometimes the past is something we’ll do anything to forget. And sometimes we learn something new about the past that changes everything we know about the present.
The way this works.
If you get between me and the things I love, I will ask you politely to move. If you get between me and the people I love, you will move.
You held me while I was fucked up, tripping from double dropping. You calmed me down and told me I shouldn’t depend on anything, or anyone, but myself for happiness. We both knew it was too late, but still, we spoke the words in hope they could erase the past. I couldn’t focus on your eyes, but I could see the fear in them. You listened to me, and you understood. Not only my messed up...
Not good enough for the truth.
You couldn’t even turn around to look me in the eye when you spoke.
