October 2009
78 posts
Somewhere
Somewhere right now a person was punched, a phone call made, a word just finished being spoken, a word began, a word on the way, a box crushed, a dream awoken, a death occurred, a house dreamed, a person defeated, a person overjoyed, a can kicked, a bird shot, a speech concluded, money raised, suicide contemplated, truth sought, morals discarded, faith found, voices raised, lips touched, skin...
“Better to write for yourself and have no public, than to write for the public...”
– Cyril Connolly (via nihilnoetia)
Here
He called today. I understood why hes been absent, not by the “I miss you when I’m away” or the promise to tick off some of our bucket list, it was the way you spoke, you’re weaved into me, your thorns have stuck in, and they’ve grown. You’re not there. Somewhere in the future, suffering for something that hasn’t happened. You’re not there, in a...
“People will wish you all the success in the world. And then hate you when you...”
Mums downstairs screaming out “I’m lost without you” along with Delta.
I’m getting out of here.
No more
On days like these, when my brain doesn’t want to form coherent sentences or interesting dialogues, I wish I had a pad of paper and a pen. And I wish it was alright for me just to write down what I wanted to say and show it to people. As a child, when we would pretend that we couldn’t speak, I loved to show what I wanted to express through pantomime or through my words on paper. I wish that this...
“I lose my voice whenever I have nothing left to say. I do this intentionally. I...”
“Train yourself to let go of everything you fear to lose.”
– Yoda (via dirtyhumans)
“You either give and forgive, or get and forget. Don’t be either.”
12204.) Sometimes my logic over rules my emotions.
(via blogsecret)
The last hope.
I knew what he meant before the words even started coming out. I was listening on the phone, when you questioned him if he still wanted to be married to you. I’m sorry mum, I’ve known for years. “You have yourself pulled together so well, nobody questions how your dealing with things Jess.” That doesn’t mean this doesn’t affect me. Tough on the exterier, a trait...
“Two things; don’t make decisions when you’re angry, and don’t make promises when...”
12131.) I swear I would be the best girlfriend you...
(via blogsecret)
12187.) I don't fall in love with people.
blogsecret:
I fall in love with characters in books, mountains, waterfalls, rain showers, and everything that is intangible.
Hang Up
The only reason everyone holds onto memories so tight is because memories are the only thing that doesn’t change when everything else does. This was always just security. Like I said: You can’t do this. You can’t put one relationship on hold for another. It’s like a call waiting… you leave one person on hold long enough, and they are gonna hang up. It feels like I’ve just hung up two phones....
“There is truth behind every “just kidding”, curiosity behind every “just...”
“The Russian word “razbliuto” means ‘the feeling you have for someone you were...”
– (via dirtyhumans)
Discontinuing Week
simplegirlbigworld:
Monday, he liked me. Tuesday, he held me. Wednesday, he loved me. Thursday, he broke my heart. Friday, he wanted me. Saturday, he made love to me. Sunday, he left me.
And each day continues on like a cycle, your cycle. I always loved wednesdays.
The journey
Pick up stones along the way. Keep the ones you like. You don’t need all of them.
11971.) Thank you for believing in me, when I...
(via blogsecret)
11987.) i can never have real closure because...
(via blogsecret)
Last night
I was looking forward to last night too. I thought if I distanced myself from people long enough, when I came back, they would change. But I was wrong. Sorry is just another word, over used and under felt, much like “I love you” and “I miss you”. So you’re sorry for what you did, and you’re sorry about what happened last night, and me… I’m sorry I...
This.
When lies became truth. Which is when pain becomes love. But I can’t, you can’t spell “believe” without “lie” You pushed that truth against me, held it like a gun, held me, You told me what I needed to hear and bought me dinner. I went back to what I was doing, living in the squalor, out of my mind, wondering why you’d ever waste your time, money and...
Logic will get you from A to Z; imagination will...
I am the shittest person.
Her: You were always the mysterious one.
“I don’t miss you when you’re here.”
